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Photography

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Mid July News: Family of the Heart

Life continues to offer surprises, and I am of no exception. Every day presents a new challenge, but I know we all do our best to stay strong and to overcome any of the obstacles that come our way. There have been many dark days, but the light continues to shine. I have held tightly onto that precious light as I face the unknown, as many of us certainly do. A few days ago, I was surprised to receive phone calls from my biological "father," (I use this term lightly) whom yet again— I have not spoken to in over twenty years, wondering why now of all times he would opt to try and contact me after his years of abuse toward my Momma and eventual abandonment. He was seeking out "information" from me— but of what kind, I little know or wish to know. I still felt a bit torn about not wishing to be selfish or hateful, but also feeling he had no right to any information from me or about me. After all, he had never been there. He had never paid my Momma a dime for child support (that

Articles, Features, Contests, Etc.

186 deviations
Suicide Prevention and Awareness Journal Skin

Miscellaneous Gems

29 deviations
Literature

Abe at the funeral

Trigger Warning: death of a loved one Abe was 25 years old and surprised by the sharpness of how few years separated himself from his parents. He was more aware of it now than even when he reached the age that they were when he was born, which had certainly been its own kind of shock. His father was now frozen in time, and would never age, which meant that someday – soon – Abe would be older than his father. It seemed like a good idea to get his life together before that happened.  His mother was holding his right hand, and smiled at him, though there were tears on her cheeks. In his mother’s right hand was Izzie’s

Prose

63 deviations

Ghost In The Machine Anniversary

By the time this journal will be posted, it will have been a year and five days since the fruits of 18 poets' labor came together to form one cohesive poem as a whole in a poem called Ghost in the Machine. As the person who organized and enjoyed putting it together, I thought I would share how this idea coalesced into something more than I had ever hoped for. By doing so, I hope to show how everything came together and the effort and compromise many people labored over to create this gift as well as share a few works in progress of the poem and a recording of a performance of it. It all started with a journal hopeburnsblue (https://www.deviantart.com/hopeburnsblue) had posted at the

Ghost in the Machine Project

15 deviations
Literature

Dove Grey

Dove grey clouds shift and tumble, playing shadow puppets with crepuscular rays shining on church bells in the quiet countryside. Thunderheads gather in the distance as loamy earth prepares to catch sweet rain. Ozone permeates the air, metallic petrichor sharp enough to fell trees shivering in anticipation, waiting for the clouds to fall.

Best Of

28 deviations
Literature

Installation Piece

Iron thorns push through skin, I’m part of an installation piece Flesh and bone, metal and stone, electronics Wheeled in on a cot, phones for eyes That never ring But I see how they look at me; (they’re thinking) How lonely it must be to slowly die alone They smile anyway, good at faking it After all, it’s their job One day the artist will be able to push a button, and I’ll spin My speaker-mouth will sing about snow Only one more push allowed And I’ll spin into space My last human thought will not be of you, but of us, together Sitting in the cold morning, coffee and cigarettes Back before they began assemblin

In Loving Memory of Ron Ray

14 deviations
Literature

Fall 2019 Haiku set

10-15 first snow of the year mosquito on the window hopefully the last 10-1 smells of autumn rain, crockpot first test of the furnace 9-15 neighborhood rooster morning announcements now remind me of Maui 9-1 sleepy holiday morning white hairs in my husband's stubble

Haiku

27 deviations
Literature

Slanted Static (C.)

I am poetry penned and gutted-- a half-slant half-cocked barrel, a bullet nosediving (shot shy in the spotlight) but awaiting the free verse of time. I am poetry carved from your soul-- a blunt sword swallowed by verse, an arrow through an apple (a shot in the dark) grabbed and broken by tradition. I am poetry stricken with silence-- I'll tell you a story if you're willing to listen of the blisters on my heart, of the shadows in the dark, of the spaces all my darts go to find motion... but you have to be ready to take the fall and trust the shattering. I am poetry bogged down with bruises-- tearing pieces from bones and souls and framing t

Collaborations

12 deviations
Literature

Patchwork Stroll

Fingerprints of scarlet smear into gold, an invitation to come back home. Sunshine exploding through shadow trees, overflow reflecting back from singing waters, known for hiding smiles and stars in their memory. It's like opening a window as a bird wings aside, calling a greeting as you open your eyes. Unexpectedly familiar, and newly grown into. Someone left the crayons out in the rain. Don't forget the umbrella.

Love Letters

22 deviations
Literature

grief

praying mantis, you hold my heart tattered at half-mast, a mantra to the sanctuary the solace your voice once provided I hear it screaming in the chasms of silence left between breath strokes and withered stars-- haikus of misunderstanding, a poetry all its own there's a breaking to the madness, a confusion of who I was and who I am; there's a madness to the breathing, a reckless nonchalance tempting the web I've woven around my wounds bandages can't fix this, stitches are bound to rip in the sunrise, and your claws are too clean to be strangling me so quickly so pull me close and tear me open I'll figure out the rest under a differ

Beth

34 deviations
Literature

please teach me

Little waterfall, churning the beautiful rocks broken, please teach me; show me how to be happy, to dance in place for hours with nothing more to show for it but more dancing tonight and tomorrow and tomorrow; show me how to be callous, to pick the sparkle from the granite and funnel it out to the fish and the propellers; show me how to be brave, slicing walls in half and in half even though they will change your shape; please teach me, little waterfall, to live life above the rocks rather than below them.

Vicky

11 deviations
Literature

Minnaar

your impression rests, still on my arm. in this bed of ours, I still remember. when you're not here, I see your voice, I hear your smile. your olhar; pierced me in entirety. still on my arm, your impression rests. I still remember, in this bed of ours. minnaar, my minnaar. I still remember.

Jordan

8 deviations
Literature

The Dangerous Think

On the streets of San Diego I waved goodbye to her like a sea’s crest and fall rising in my chest. If this moment is worth thinking about, it’s not worth overthinking, but I do anyways. I play coy in being closeted and glare another convinced smile, blare another compliment in our parting and chuckle through the memory: “I was afraid,” she had mouthed and I mimed along post-martyr in analytical cockiness “I was afraid if you thought you might be schizophrenic you would think yourself there.” she had said. I am always in my own head, my own way too much. I laugh the distrust off. My mother says she s

Nic

24 deviations
Literature

on fear

knuckles paler than normal, your slender fingers wrap around your scraped and dot-spilled coffee cup with frustration. your lips meet the rim in desperate attempts to wash the taste off your tongue. this is a flavor far too familiar but far too bitter for comfort. your collarbone screams at the skin above, red splotches pecking your shoulders and above your heart plate. not one for crying, tears dance at the edge of your eyelids, ready to make the jump to the next life. spiraling, you tell me is what you're afraid of. spiraling, you tell me is what you're trying to avoid. spiraling, you tell me is when the end meets the end. and what

Ricky

15 deviations
Literature

Hope.

There's not a second            a stargaze            a sunset That's not bringing me(closer to)you.                    

Kaylin

6 deviations

Delice

22 deviations
Literature

The Library

The smell of parchment swirls slowly through the air, drifting down sunbeams among the dust of long kept secrets Secrets creeping 'tween the shelves, careful, cautious, the silence - screaming stretching straining to hide softest whispers, too long looks. Penned in open, or inked in secret. Wrapped in binding of every hue, left behind words, long lost breath Ancient letters, swollen scrolls Tales of adventures that slink between the margins. Secrets are kept closed and saved between the pages But the smell of you - open just a crack

Crystal

11 deviations

Sprite Kelsy

6 deviations
Literature

dove.cote

One day I will not see you as beautiful. It is not now, it is not today. But one day you will be a face, divorced from all the photos I couldn’t bear to burn. You will be stood across the room, and I will meet your gaze with all the indifference of a stranger. My heart will not lurch, will not trip on the last words we shared, “take care, always remember-” It is not now, it is not today. You will laugh, smile, do that thing with the corners of your eyes, you will gesture like so, you will click your tongue and shake your head, you will spill your drink on an unsuspecting passerby, and I will hardly notice. You will approach

Comet Kelsey

22 deviations
Literature

Songs That Sound Like Space

I think I might be coming back. I hear the echo, the sonic boom from the beginning of time, shocking my system with static potential, the hum that's always been there. In between my ears I think there's someone chattering again, and she's lilting along puffing out thoughts into the warming winter air. Maybe I just needed to ground myself, let the electricity in once more, but I was afraid to touch the universe for fear of the stars stinging my fingers. Beginning again can hurt but again I feel awake.

Marie

19 deviations
Literature

Moss Green

Moss green fence slats lay decaying in the backyard, half dried from recent rain. The squirrels rustle across dead leaves, fleeing barking dogs and near-silent cats prowling for a quick meal. Pollen saturates the air; mushrooms grow in the shade of fallen branches as the fuzz of lichen creeps over a trunk felled in favor of a wooden fence.

Lauren

28 deviations
Literature

Insatiable

He wonders what she hides behind   that mischievous smile, and the     crescent wile of curvaceous skin. The little black dress that shows   what's hidden from within, and artful   hands that tender its sin, of how her eyes can melt his soul,   black gems that glitter, flash and burn,   and make him yearn for tangled limbs. His lover's mouth with its hunger,   insatiable until it's done. Her body's desire renders its pureness,   oiling his with her serpent's move,     slick from the whiteness of him. Moonlit gleam of heavy eyes, a shudder and a rush of sighs when a tongue curls in. Her grin, and the joy felt within by her   lover's unex

Jade

5 deviations
Literature

Punctuation

“I thought full stop didn’t feel like going because of her period,” whispered hyphen. “Oh, no,” said semicolon, “that’s not full stop; that’s dot, one of the ellipsis sisters.” Well, considered hyphen as he prepared to dash off, it had been a confusing story but now it seemed he’d be able to join the dots...

Frankles

6 deviations
Literature

Why I Can't Just Hit Unfriend

I hate finality, any action that closes doors all the way, so they click shut and there's no way back in: some rooms are windowless, all brick and mortar with little cracks, big enough for ants but too small for me and the immenseness of the possibilities that live on in my head.

Kaelyn

6 deviations
Literature

Sticks and Stones

They say words can never hurt you. Silence does a better job.

Skander

5 deviations
Literature

Home

First inhalations past the threshold, wordless perfume somewhere between dust, sunlight blooming floral in an open mouth, and linen. My grandfather said his first action home after slipping the tired strap of his travel-bag off his shoulders was to kiss the coverlet of his bed, and at eight I couldn't comprehend. Now I understand it is prayer and apology for wanderlust, infidelity to spaces we so often take for granted. I cannot steal his ritual, so mine lingers in breath instead-- I refuse to breathe until I open the door, until I hunger for home, and home becomes my lungs again. I breathe around the word like wine, lips closing around the syllable, a spoonful of shepherd's pie. I am the sommelier of journey's end; it is never the same bouquet twice. Sometimes the rice has gone bad in the fridge, overpowering the ghost of lavender; Sometimes three o'clock warms old candle wax, leaving notes of peony and laughter. I savor all the same. I wonder if the doorframe

Lizzie

7 deviations
Literature

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Your mouth: a lily. Pure, sweet and floating lithe, just out of reach.

Sky

5 deviations